Since last many months i was distressed...puzzled..and infect i was not able to sleep even for single night since the time i have left Mumbai. The reason for it was simple and very visible but i was refusing to apprehend...may coz it happened to me first time in last many years of mine existence.
May be it happened coz i have never experienced that feeling in last 28 yrs of my existence..i was new to this feeling..may be whom so ever had felt that feeling...he/she can understand or relate to it..the feeling of dejected, bleak and heavy hearted.I have created that phase of my life more complicated and convoluted, it can be better handled with wisdom & ripeness but i guess this lesson for me is essential and required so i can be balanced person and will able to hold my emotion and adapt to situation in life more easily and maturely.
The answer to all my feeling and emotion are simple i was not able to MOVE-ON, i was living in past and want to hold my past while proceeding in future, but i guess people who were associate with me in my past was mature and smart enough as compare to me. They have opted out from my life and got busy with in there respective life and also found new friend and activity to stay busy enough.
The difference between me and them is just they were quick enough in adopting to the situation and reacting to it as compare to me, who were still thinking on traditional way like "out of sight & out of mind" which is a time taking process may be a month, a year or i don't know!! It can't be quantified by a normal human being.
Past many month i have tried my best to understand why these people who were my priority in my life has treated me like a option, i have cried alot,done all those thing and behave in most appropriate behavior in order to correct my feeling but was failed every time. My life went for toss, relationship got sore with everyone may be i am punishing everyone for my sorrows but the true reason behind this i was not allowing my past to let go, i was holding it close to my heart, which of no use coz for whom i was doing all this was never bothered about all this, infect they were happy in there respective life's i was the only one who was at lose in every aspect.
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